Rest before you get tired
I often times have described myself in the past, shamelessly at that, as a workaholic. I do work a lot and am generally passionate and proud of the work I do. I have been known to be focused (at times), and sometimes to the point when I am on a role, of not thinking about other essential things needed for life such as eating or sleeping. In truth, now I would fully describe myself as a recovering workaholic. A work in progress.I have been battling this "addiction" as long as I can remember. I found some relative success at a young age and felt that the only way to continue and to be taken seriously by others was to work endlessly. Trying each and every day to prove I had what it took and to be the "best". Long days and many many sleepless or nearly sleepless nights. But I started to think of the value of what I do, and how the work I do relates to the rest of my life. I used to think that being a workaholic was solely related to how much I spent time doing work. The number of hours I put in. And sure this is part of it but only part. The other part is a bit harder to see, at least from the workaholics perspective. The part where I am at family events or social gatherings and find myself thinking and talking about work, about new ideas or how I could do this or that better. Always searching for ways to improve and do better. Though I may be present outside of work often times I wasn't mentally present. Maybe it was insecurities maybe it was ego, probably both. But I felt defined and measured solely but my work and what I achieved and felt worthless without progress. The interesting outcome of working less is that you see more. And when you see more you can work smarter. Taking time out to think or to relax actually improved my performance and allows me to get more done in less time. The other way to help me curb my addiction is a simple thought that what I am doing isn't nearly as important as I think it is. If I was to stop doing this, if it is important someone else would take over, and if it's no one would really notice. As a recovering workaholic, I can say that I am taking steps to recover, but it is still a daily struggle and I still often fail. I have yet to master prioritizing life over work and learning to define myself as who I am, rather than what I do or have accomplished. I do understand that life is short, that there are so many things I want to do and that even though I might want to I will never be able to do even a small percentage of them. I want to enjoy the company of others, cherish my relationships for that is the true value in life. Rest before you get tired.